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Sometimes I wonder even the people u know the most or u feel it that u know them the most have some side of them which is totally unknown to u. And when u encounter that side of them u wonder if that’s real them. u start thinking or u even feel bad cos even when u so close u still didn’t know something about them. U feel bad and disappointed for not knowing it. Ur brains keeps wondering whether u aren’t worth knowing it, but isn’t that way.
We the human beings are so complex so complex with our emotions. After knowing so many people in life I have learnt one thing even though u love someone, or u are strongly bonded with someone there is always a part of u which is just for urself. It isn’t necessary to make someone a part of it cos those our ur moments, ur thoughts, that’s something u have decided to keep to urself. And today when I sit and wonder what it is that I have kept to myself, what it is that no one knows apart from me, I m not able answer it. Is it really that, or I have totally pored my heart to someone that I have nothing kept to myself, or its just that the side of mine which I have kept so much to myself is lost deep inside me… what if I just loose it totally and never able to figure out what is it that’s by me all for myself… will I just loose a part of me without even knowing about it… is that really a loss???
For the first time today I m writing my blog with tears rolling down my face..i don’t even know why m I mentioning this here… but I am glad they are rolling down. Coz it has touched right at the core of my heart making me realize how much it means to me…ill tell u someday what am I talking about…

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Yours Truly :) said…
Well I always believe that there's a part of you that is always locked out and no one gets to see that unless and until the situation demands it and that's where the character of a person comes from! I am sure that whatever it is that you are talking about, it would be something that would make you strong as a person :)

PS Don't cry... u know i dont like it :-*
February 13, 2010 at 6:35 PM
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